12/17/24
god forbids we ever end up together but i dont care what he thinks, i want to be able to see u smile before i go and if god really didnt want us to be together then maybe we shouldnt have crossed paths that day, maybe our eyes shouldnt have met tht day, maybe i shouldnt have waved and mumbled "goodbye" under my breath bc i was too shy, maybe we shouldnt have those random awkward conversations silently chuckling if the universe really forbid us from being together or maybe this was just a sign that i have to try even harder to get close to you before i have to leave, before i ever got the chance to even tell you that id be gone. if one day i were gone, would you ask around? or would you think i left volunteerily? i hope if that happens, id hope for you to reach out to me. but we both know we're both scared.